not ready to make nice

recently, things weren't turning up to be so good
plan was outrageously off the target
mind was blowing in space
heart was burning inside out
everything has ruined tremendously
was so tired to deal with these craziness AGAIN
keep on coming jiggling the 'light' i was hoping for
maybe am not deserve to be like others
embracing happiness, comfortably breathing the air
having fun without thinking too much deeply
lead a better life ahead
no..not at all
kinda start to feel am having inferiority complex
am i?
am simply couldn't understand what it is all about
i feel so mad and sad
but how could i interpret it without being judging?
maybe this is the price i have to pay
and i'll keep paying
should stop here before i go further to all-about-me-ism

Kolomental

olrite
this bloody song i've got from someone
someone who best known as queen of abuja
wakakakakakakakaka
her majesty all time favourite
present to u
faze
am kinda fall into this song
;)

Sebelum cahaya

this is the current song i've been listening to
well,actually it has been a while in my track
keep on playing it,again n again
not very sure what is the motive of the song
but,try to listen to it
maybe y'all could think of any

I wish...

at certain in our life,we wish for the best
best in health
best in wealth
best in wisdom
best in possession
everything is about having the best things ever
but,doesn't it look impractical whereas life is about balancing,does it?
at a time we could attain the best
but sometime it turns out to be the worst
just imagine your life gradually clinches the best
until it started to cruelly drops to the worst, unexpectedly
and it tends to drag u down slowly and slowly
it's like a crack growth theory that I'm doing now for my study
having a catalyst to passionate your life is the best u can have
but how well it could take u to the higher u can be?
expressing your real feeling inside just to stand up for your right isn't worthwhile
certainly u'd jump into an argument that lead u to lose your integrity
and yet,u're to be blamed
one has said
'there is a deeper strength and an amazing abundance of peace available for us
and the difficult times are often the best teachers'
apparently, i don't see it that way

tensile & compressive

eeeeeeerrrrrrrrgggggghhhhh

the title doesn't really suitable
intentionally using the engineering term
wakakakaka
just feel like burning inside
to see the thing in front of me now
this thing suppose to be great
shouldn't have to be this way
i didn't curse u
or either make any harm to u
but why u such a jerk now?
please la deyyy
i put u on top of my list
but then u blew me off
ah!what a skank!
i think i just have to do......

..this

Pity Sufiah, the internet prostitute?

nauuzubillahi min zaliq...

do u guys remember this genius girl
back in 1997, spread all over the news
a 13 years old girl has been accepted to Oxford
to study math
and now she's doing internet prostitution
how sad it was to see
a young brilliant girl
which obviously a muslim
stranded her life to be in such lifestyle
May Allah gives her the light
let us pray for her

during her first day in Oxford

marriage that has ended

Ayat ayat cinta....

must be u all kinda freakin' out to look at the title
am i goin' nuts or what?
well,to tell u the truth
actually i had watched this movie
named as the title
it was an indonesian movie
an islamic storyline film i ever watched
stirred with the current trend of love story
it showed us how beautiful Islam is
if we could embrace the purity of Islam as the way of life
masyaAllah...
what I learned from it was
when we've been fitnah
we have to go back to Yusuf (a.s) story
patience n sincerity are the key to overcome the matter
the question is
how far we could be in the possession?
so
please do watch this film
u all can search it in the youtube
highly recommended!

Dosser...

hmm,easter break is really tempted
drag me to the 'place' that I never wanted to stay
the more i resist,the more it crawls over me
arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
where goes the plan?
it's nearly to reach one month
should i say it goes well?
hmm,sort of
but still the urge inside me courageously wanted to have more
somehow,it feels wrong to be in the comfort zone
but rather than be in the demotivated state
to be around ppl who tends to bring me down
that's the whole screwing big time
what am i rambling on?
wakakakakaka
must be the easter-break syndrom...

Pre - Marriage Course

last weekend, the socitey held a 2-consecutive-days pre-marriage course
it was interesting
well,couldn't be more interesting if we're talking about marriage,isn't it?
ust erfino from the MSD conducted the full informative sessions
with the cert to be grabbed,we can get married right away
awesome!
but when will it be?hmmmm....
here some goodies...(credit to basyeer)

interesting....

people with hopes in the future or perhaps on this coming weeks...hehe...

people with full concentration but the most goes to the chap in red...just look at his expression and what with the pen,mate?wakakakakakakakaka

Back to be tortured...

assalamualaikum.holla!ohayyo!aloha!

guess i'm back for a new spirit to get fierce?wakakakaka
it's been a while yeah?
well,dun blame me
now,it's time for an another post
just to update that I'm back to be tortured...
what's that suppose to mean huh?
well,back to school,ppl...back to schoooooooool!
yeah,i'm back to my former place
this time it's gonna get reeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeally fierce
couldn't mess around,could i?
hope to see u guys in another episode of '...and it all begin....'
see ya!